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Monday, October 26, 2009

And the other things.....

10:15 PM | Posted by Beth | Edit Post
I'm starting to get nervous now... I'm thinking more and more about the labour and arrival of our little Dot...

Little Man's arrival was uneventful and an amazing experience. I'm just hoping this one is just as good. I know the final outcome will be as good, but I'm not sure how I'd cope with a long, drawn-out labour. :(

I'm in the process of rethinking having a homebirth, on the basis my blood pressure is slowly creeping up, and I'm unsure if I'm even going to get to 37 weeks.
It would still be nice if I can... blood pressure dependent I think.

35 weeks now, which means not long left even if I go over... which I will do everything in my power not to do. :) I know Dot will come when he/she is ready, but I'd rather not wait too long. I'm already feeling very big and uncomfortable. And I'm scared I'm going to end up with a baby the size of a 2 year old...Judging by the fact, Daddy is 6' 10 and was born 3 weeks early and still weighed almost 10lb! :( lol

Little Man gave my Mum a giggle earlier when she asked him for a hug.... he said he didn't have any left for her, only little ones for Baby Dot.. It looks like he's saving them up.. Baby Dot is going to be smothered with love. :)
Mind you he's been asking for a Baby Sister since last year... even wanted one for Christmas last year.
I hope he isn't going to be too disappointed if Dot turns out to be a boy. lol.

Talking of Little Man, he's off school for the week with half term, and is staying up Mum's. So some R&R for me, as well as some cleaning and room organising. :)

I have a Midwife appointment on Wednesday, so we'll find out how far down Dot is. :) And then Consultant on Thursday to discuss my homebirth. :) Two busy days there.

I'm off to bed now, to make Dot wriggle for me. So sleep well everyone and I'll be back soon. I promise. :)
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RIP FRIENDSHIP

8:37 PM | Posted by Beth | Edit Post
I can't understand why people feel the need to blame others for their own mistakes.

I have a friend, actually no that's wrong.. I HAD a friend whom I would have done anything for. Well, maybe, I wouldn't have been dull enough to put my hand in a fire... but still, I was always there when she needed me.
I would lend her money when she needed it, and not keep on at her to give it back until she could afford it (as she did with me in the past). I would look after her children if ever she needed me to, as she would for me. It seems like we both won out of the friendship.

Unfortunately, the friendship has all turned sour. All over money lent to her that she didn't seem to want to pay back.
The arrangement was to pay the loan back over 3 weeks, and it wasn't done.
She wouldn't answer her phone, and nor would she answer my texts, saying that her other half had her phone. Ok then, so why could I contact her until payday then no contact? :(

It seems like the blame was on me...
I couldn't deal with it all any longer, so asked J to do it, then she told us she would sort it with my Mother, which was fine by me.

It was all blown out of proportion.

There were things that were said, that really didn't need to be said... She brought up the past, which didn't need to be brought up. This was not about what somebody said or didn't say almost 12 months ago, this was about paying money back, and ignoring the fact it had to be paid back, and breaking agreements to return my possessions.
I've had the majority of the money back, and my laptop and dongle, and have now left it lie with her.

I normally lose my temper and argue but this entire situation has just made me ill. I've been diagnosed with anxiety, and keep having palpitations, coupled with breathlessness. My blood pressure has been gradually creeping up throughout the time this has been going on. I'm relieved Mum decided to take over because I dread to think what I would have been like. Probably in hospital, having a premature baby.

I feel sad about the situation, but I also feel I'm better off now.
I certainly will not be a ready to trust people in future. In fact it's made me wonder if it's worth having 'best' friends at all.
I certainly did not want our friendship to end, and certainly not in these circumstances, but everything happens for a reason.

RIP Friendship
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